When
I was 17-years-old I was part of a youth group that travelled to Israel for
three weeks. It was a great trip. We were able to travel around the country and
were billeted in the homes of Israelis in a small town called Or Yehuda. My favourite
part of the trip was a visit to the City of Jerusalem. We visited several sites
within the Holy City including the Western Wall (aka: The Wailing Wall). This
wall is the only thing left of the second temple after it was destroyed by the
Romans. Thousands upon thousands of people visit this wall on a regular basis
to pray to God. If you are ever able to visit this wall you will notice that
there are millions of tiny pieces of paper shoved into the cracks of it. These
are payers to God placed in it by visitors. I was no exception and placed my
own note into the wall.
Once
a Jewish male is Bar Mitzvahed he is allowed to take part in the ritual of
praying while wearing tefillin (phylacteries), one on the forehead and one on
the left arm. There was an Hasidic Jew praying at the wall the day I visited
and he was placing tefillin on people who wanted to pray with them. I took full
advantage of this offer. While placing the tefillin on me the Jewish man
noticed that I had an earring. He advised me to, “follow faith not fads.” I blew
off this advice and went on with my life.
Who
could have known that 18 years later I’d be a hollow shell of a man who had
lost faith in anything and crawled into the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. As I
began this journey in AA I came to believe in a power greater than myself and
had faith that this power would, not only, help me to remain sober but would be
a guiding beacon in my life – guiding me in both my thinking and my actions. As
I went through the 12 Steps of recovery I learned that I could not find
serenity in things outside of myself (fads included) but that I must find that
inner power that my God placed within me in order to become happy, joyous and
free.
Today
I have faith that a power greater than myself is looking out for me and guiding
me in this journey of recovery. I have not been lucky enough to return to
Israel but am confident that I would have a new outlook on spirituality and
faith if I ever do.
By
the way, I still have the earring (actually two more). I also have a couple of tattoos
– one the Hebrew symbol of life and one the Hebrew word for peace as well as my
sobriety date.
Dave
the Dude
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